It wasn’t meant for you

I like many others do not like looking at photos of my self, can’t stand it. Don’t even get me started on videos. I have this perception of myself when i walk outside my house. I believe I look confident, strong, ready and willing to take on the world. But that’s not the person I see in those pictures, I see a weird, goofy looking image of myself. When I hear my voice on video, I think who the hell is that? Do i really sound that bad? When I inform other people of my self inquires they say the usual things “it’s all in your head”. “you look fine” ,”you sound fine”. That’s when I realized something, My voice, my looks, my smile, my laugh. Those things, they weren’t meant for me. They were meant for everyone else.

No matter who you are we have all at some point struggled with insecurity. Am i not good enough? i could never do those things that other people can do. I’ll never look that good. But what if i told you that you can do those things. That you do look “fine” in those photos, your voice doesn’t sound weird to anyone else. Human beings are first person creatures for a reason, were meant to take in everything and everyone else, not to constantly be checking ourselves out.

All those different personalities you surround yourself with on a daily basis, all those awesome friends of yours with their quirks and those faces they make. Your one of those people to someone, you have a smile that cheers somebody up You have a laugh that people love to hear, you have a face that someone loves to see. Don’t be discouraged when you don’t like the way your picture came out, don’t feel insecure if you think your voice sounds weird. Everything about is exactly how it should be.

I’ve gotten over having to look at myself on camera, because I understand something now. Everything about me wasn’t made for me. So when those moments of insecurity come over you, don’t worry about it. You may never be able to look at a picture of yourself and say “wow, I love the way I look”. but that’s okay, because it was never meant for you

Coming Down To Earth

Like most of the people in America  this past weekend, I saw Gravity. It was easily one the most intense, gripping and suspenseful movie I’ve seen this year, I of course saw it on the IMAX. As I walked out of the movie theater I couldn’t help but think of one thing. Yes, it was a great movie, yes it had me on the edge of my seat. But what really sold me about the movie was the experience. The IMAX experience is amazing, the sound, the 3D. It was a fantastic experience, I know that if I were to watch gravity on dvd. I would enjoy it, but it just wouldn’t be the same experience.

At the age of twenty-three I’ve come to that stage in my life where hanging out with my “parents” is no longer an uncool thing to do, in fact I enjoy it. My parents are relatively young for their age, Someday though they wont be the same age and to be quite honest, they wont be the same people. Whether it’s for better or worst, only time will tell.  My experience with them twenty years from now wont be the same that it is now. Enjoy these moments of your life now, you may be able to do them  later on. It just wont be the same, Hang out with your family, let go of that bitterness you have against someone. Life’s to short to pass by all the experiences you could have with people over something useless.

I lost my brother when I was eleven years old, We got into our fair share of fights in that short amount of time, but i always spent as much time with him as possible. Those are experiences that i will never forget. I’m not saying something awful is going to happen to someone you know, I’m just trying to tell you that life isn’t forever and neither are any of day-to-day scenarios. Different seasons come and go thru our life, some people stay for the long run and some people move on to  different seasons of their life.

Gravity will be in the IMAX for about another three weeks, then it will be gone. I plan on seeing it again this upcoming Sunday, it sounds crazy I know. Save your money, wait for it on dvd, download it. I could do all of those things, but it wont be the same experience, the way I felt watching it, how it captured me, the overpowering sound effects. I can only get that experience for a limited time and then it will be gone. Be with the people you care about, call them even if they don’t call you,  buy them dinner, Give them an experience they’ll never forget.

Dont Look Down

I currently have Four hundred and ninety-seven friends on Facebook. I only probably interact with fifty of those people IF that.  Facebook, twitter,my space (HA!), pintrest,linked in. The list goes on, social media is more prevalent now than ever before. Talk to all your friends from high school, never lose touch with anyone. But What if i want to lose touch with someone? What if were not meant to stay in touch with everybody forever. Sounds harsh i know, but there are plenty of people that if i saw, i would walk right by them. Harsh, but this about survival.

Steven Spielberg, Martin Scorsese, George Lucas, Oliver stone.  What do those men have in common besides being very successful filmmakers? They were best friends before they ever got near success. They all shared a dream, a dream to make great films.  What are the dreams of the people you surround yourself with, do they just want to “get by”. No matter what you think, the people you choose to hang out with have an effect on your life. Whether its good or bad, well that’s up too.

If someone says you can’t do something, walk away from them. “well no one in your family has ever amounted to anything”, Well you know what, ill be the first. Don’t argue with these people, don’t even give them the time of day. Surround yourself with people who challenge the norm, who believe they can make a difference, the people who realize that money doesn’t guarantee happiness and are willing to fail again and again. The people who wont walk away from you when your down, but will walk towards you.

I know that if i want to get anywhere near my dream, i need to be around people who will challenge me. Who aren’t afraid to call me out when i mess up.  There a lot of things in life that we can’t avoid, but there a lot that we can. Don’t let the people around be the ones who cause you stress, move on. You may be alone for a while, but you’ll be alone in peace. I don’t want to successful by myself, i want the people who i surround myself with to be there with me, but they’ll only be there if there willing to climb to the top with you.

The Bad Years

One of my favorite actors is Robert Downey Jr., if you were to ask anyone about him. I’m sure the first words they would say would be something like “awesome, hysterical, Talented, Successful”. Robert Downey Jr. Is one of the most bankable actors in Hollywood right now. Every studio out there would fight to have him as their lead actor. But this wasn’t always so, between 1997-2001. Robert Downey Jr. was regarded as one of the most reckless, drug addicted actors on the market. No studio wanted to touch him, he was fired from the hit show “Ally Mcbeal” at the time. For five years, Robert Downey Jr. was addicted to drugs, thrown in jail and thrown off of one of the biggest tv shows of the 1990’s. Those were Bad years.

I could look back at some years in my life and just think “Wow, i have had much better days”. I had no idea how i survived those times, but here i am writing this and doing pretty well for myself. Everyone at some point has said they’ve had a bad morning,night,day,week. But not many people like to admit they’ve had bad years. Bad years happen to everyone, I’m sure some your favorite teams have had bad years. I believe im coming out of my bad years right now. I never held a job for more than six months, I always made excuses about why i was in the situation i was in. It was someone elses fault, I just wasn’t “feeling” that job anymore. I couldn’t save money because i wasn’t making enough. Not because i wanted to spend my money at the bar.

Bad things happen to everyone, whether it’s a loss of someone they loved, losing your job, your spouse left you. Bad things happen, but the sad part is that these “bad years” can last as long as you want them too. You have to decide to get back up on your feet and start your good years. They wont just come knocking at your door, you’ll stumble on the way to them, sometimes you think that good years are a thing of the past and things are just the way they are. Bad years can last a very long time if you allow them too. I know my good years are coming, i know that they’ll be better than the good years i had before, but i also know that bad years are inevitable. you need the bad years so that when the good years roll around, you’ll enjoy them more.

Don’t be scared of the bad years, if life has shown me anything, it’s when the bad years come around. Get excited, because that means there are some very good years up ahead of you. One day you’ll be the most bankable person, you’ll win the Superbowl you’ve been training so hard for. Don’t get lost in the bad years, what are five bad years compared to a life of eighty-five years?  If all else fails, remember someone once told Steve jobs that his ideas were crazy and would never catch on.

7 Days

I recently found myself without power for 7 days (it was all of my own doing of course) but that’s besides the point. 7 days doesn’t seem like a long time, but I believe it is. 7 days in a week, 7 days to create the earth, 7 days to form a new habit. I believe theirs a lot of importance around 7 days. 7 days without power was not something i would ever wish or ask for, but it was somehow something i needed.

I send a challenge to everybody who thinks they need something in there lives.  Go 7 days without it. The first day without power was awful, Facebook? Nope, Videogames? Nope. Netflix? Nope. What the hell am i going to do with myself? In that question, i found the answer. I spent sometime with Myself.  I had time to read those books ive been dying to catch up on,  I fell asleep to the noises of nature instead of Futurama in on my tv. When the sun went to sleep, so did I. Waking up early is easy when you don’t have a bright screen to keep you up all night.

It’s nice to have friends over when you’re not in front of  a bright screen. We talked about things that I forgot even existed, We shared laughs, we noticed things around us. No bright screen to distract us. Now don’t get it wrong, I love my little bright screen every night. I’ve had many good nights in front of my bright screen.  I missed my bright screen,  but when the bright screen isn’t around, you have time to notice the things that can never be cut off from you life. The things you don’t have to wait 7 days to enjoy again.

It took me 7 days to realize certain things about my life that I would have never noticed otherwise, all I had to do was pull a cord out of the wall.  We take things or granted, you turn the switch on and off, all day long. Never realizing that something so simple as electricity has a lot more complications in our life than we realize. The sun never sends me a monthly bill, We take for granted the things around us that we don’t have to pay for. Turn the switches off, pull the cords out of the wall. Open your shades up, invite your friends and family over. Enjoy their laughs, the stories they tell. You wont be able to watch them over and over again on a bright little screen when their gone.

Distraction from the Giant

One of my favorite stories in the bible, is the story of David and the Goliath. When most people think of that story, they think of someone overcoming the odds and succeeding. That is one point of the story, but theirs another point of the story that most people don’t realize, and i believe it’s just as important as the other point of the story.  When David decided he was going to take on the giant, something happened. People started to look at him differently, Then they even started to say things to him, They tried to distract him

Making the decision to take on the giant isn’t really the hard part, It’s the walk thru the crowd that usually stops people dead in their tracks. People were telling David it was impossible, to not even try. How many times have you decided to do something in your life, you know what needs to get done and your on a mission. Then something gets in the way, people start to tell you its insane, you get sick, an unexpected bill shows up. Distractions, they show up more than we know. We say things like “life happens”, “sometimes you can’t avoid it”

Don’t lose sight of the giants in your life, remember they tower over everything else. David knew as he walking thru the crowd that he needed all his energy to take down the Goliath. When people started to shout things at him thru the crowd, he could have easily stopped and argued with them. But he kept on walking right by, David knew that he was going to need all his energy to stop the Goliath, he couldn’t be distracted

Whenever Ive decided to make a big change in my life or to start a big project, im always on my guard for distractions. I know how easy it is to be distracted. it comes in all shapes and sizes, I see the Goliath in my life. I know my limits, i know how much energy im going to need. Next time you start chasing the Goliath, don’t lose sight. Look above the crowd, they can yell, they can try to stop you. All you need to do is keep on walking by, there nothing more but mere distractions.

Trade In Value

I love video games, I’ve been a complete nerd my entire life (I would like to thank my parents). So now that the new Xbox and PlayStation systems have been announced, I’m obviously very excited about this. But it made me realize something, I have gone thru seven Xbox 360’s since they were first released way back in 2005. I always wanted to get the new updated system. More memory, sleeker design. Always a new perk, always a new reason to trade in the old one.

Now looking at the current Xbox i own, It’s not that good. Funny right? I spent so much effort trading in the old systems for the new ones, Now looking at it after all this time.  All the effort i put in to get the “new” system, wasn’t even worth it. I spent so much time trying to get the new system, i wasn’t appreciating the current system that I had. Maybe if i had for one second just stopped and realized “Wow, this is awesome, I didn’t pay for this, it works great and it has everything i need

It has everything i need. Such a powerful statement, how many times do you think you have to upgrade something in your life. But if you just stopped and appreciated everything you have, we would realize we don’t need to trade it in. Every time you trade something in for the new one. You have to Sacrifice something for it, it loses value. You put all this energy into something you don’t need. All you get in the end is wasted energy and bitterness at your current system.

Don’t be so quick to upgrade your life, the promotions, the dreams, the new system. Those things will come in time, enjoy the things you have now. Take care of them, appreciate them. You might end up realizing, that the old system you have, has more trade in value than any new system out there.

Keeping The Pace

      I was never really athletic when i was younger, I was always in that awkward phase. I was never really fat but i was never really skinny. So i decided i would join the new trend and start working out, Needless to say i fell in love with it.

But there was always something that bothered me. I sucked at running, no matter how many hours i spent on a treadmill, i sucked. So i decided ill start running outside, that will help right? Fresh air will be good for me, that’s why i cant run for a long period of time! NOPE, now im just embarrassing myself in public. Confused and frustrated i stopped running.

Why couldn’t i run as long as everyone else? What was i doing wrong! i ran three days a week. Maybe i was never meant to be a long distance runner. I accepted my fate and just kept going along. Running, stopping, running, stopping. Life isn’t always fair, There will always be people who can run farther than you. I’m twenty-two years old, turning twenty-three and i am currently not doing anything with my life that i want to do.

I see people who are younger than me who are more successful than i am. Their not in debt, they’re getting the big breaks, they found the person they want to be with the rest of their life. I see them so far ahead of me, im struggling to keep up with them, but there just running at their own pace, Barely breaking a sweat.

I keep getting up every day and i run. I sprint as fast as i can hoping i can catch up. always finding myself out of breath, in pain. I know I’ve been running just as long as these other people have, if not longer. Something was missing and i had to find out what it was. A good friend of mine asked me to run with her, i noticed what a good runner she was. So i humbled myself and i asked her for some advice, what was i doing wrong? Her response “You need to slow down, run at your own pace”. Slow down? That’s insane.

If i slow down everyone else will fly right by me! But hey my way wasn’t working, so what the hell, its worth a shot. So i slowed down my pace, i kept running. Then something strange happened, i kept running. My legs didn’t hurt, my breathing was calm, I just kept going. I started passing people who i saw ahead of me. I still had all this energy, i just kept running,running and running. I didn’t STOP. I ran four miles straight without stopping. I could barely make it a mile without stopping the week before!

Sometimes We think we need to be where  everyone else is, so we wear ourselves out trying to get there. But if we just slow down, take the time to enjoy everything around us. instead of constantly looking ahead, we could see the things we’ve already passed, we would notice how much farther we can go when keep at out own pace. You wont be worn out, you wont feel like giving up. You wont even break a sweat